And All The Stories...

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WHO: Kagerou + OPEN
WHERE: Trion's Temple & Library
WHEN: After Kay's post
WHAT: Venturing out of his pity party for a while, in order to do research. Reading. And maybe stalking anyone else prowling around.
WARNINGS: Nothing!


He wouldn't have left his room, had the guilt not all but shoved him out. He'd forgotten something important. He'd forgotten something important to Kay. It was worse, in a way, than forgetting anything else.

Almost anything.

So he'd slipped out of their room. Despite his outburst, he still seemed to have relatively free reign of the place. No one would mind him poking about, he thought. If they did... maybe his supposed "status" would actually be of use. For once.

Besides, it wasn't as if he was doing anything particularly wrong. Just ducking into the library. Reading the books and scanning the data there was hardly against the rules. Or, if it was, no one had seen fit to tell him. Part of him doubted he'd be able to find what he was looking for -- the FirstForged likely wouldn't want anyone knowing how to remove the markings put in place, if it were even possible at all. One more thing he had to find out.

He could be found flitting about the bookcases. Hovering in the air, or perched up on a shelf, reading, his expression creased in a frown. So far, nothing was helpful. Even though he'd started a pile -- all books and data pads which might contain something useful in getting this mark off him. It couldn't be permanent. They were leading him on.

They had to be.

Except for a select few books he'd located on the "cultural significance of birthdays"...

Comments

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I know. She's... I don't have anyone who cares like she does. Not here.

[Because he can't discount Shadowmaru. Even if he doesn't know how the other ninja would feel...]

[He shakes his head, pulling his knees to his chest, up on his perch.]

No. Human beings never saw fit to include a prototype in their parties.

[raceme]

Ah, I see. Then it's good that you found each other. Here?

[One day he will have to talk about all that, it's not good to keep it all inside Kagerou.]

Oh. Humans can be really weird, you know.

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Yes... I don't... know what I would do, if she weren't here.

[Ninjas are supposed to keep everything inside. They're supposed to be calm and collected.]

[... he's just not all that good at it, when he really gets worked up.]

No, I don't know. They kept us apart from them. Being here is... the most I've ever seen of human beings.

[raceme]

There's more people here than you might realize that cares about you, Kagerou.

[Robot ninjas can be different.

Blurr would understand, he can be like that too.]

When I was on Earth all the humans I met were mean to me, one of them specially. Thankfully things change.

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No. I know who they are.

[And they're all too few for his liking. All disappear too soon.]

[Maybe he'll get over it one day.]

Things change. [He shakes his head.] Not fast enough.

[raceme]

Ah...you sure?

[Blurr is still there, if it's of any consolation? He's not sure how to feel when he's around Kagerou, it looks like every time he tries to be friendly he says something that makes the other angry or sad.]

Then we will make them change. We can start with a party.

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Yes.

[Hey, Blurr counts. Even if the BP unit isn't... all that good at expressing it.]

Hm. Here... it's less of a problem. No one here has treated me like a simple machine...

[raceme]

Okay then.

[Ah, he would be glad if he knew. He cares about him a lot too.]

No one should treat you like that. I_{s just as bad as en}treating all organics like they are animals

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It's how I was seen, back where I came from. Nothing more than a fancy, talking machine. No one cared what I thought, or wanted...

[Except one.]

I wonder, sometimes. What they would have thought of all of you.

[raceme]

Cruelty is a common trait among the living, it doesn't mean that everyone will be always like that, thankfully.

[An important one.]

When I was on Earth a human called Mater Disaster used to control me, I couldn't change _{back and I was stuck} in my car alt mode. He forced me to compete in street races because I always won. But ^{then I met Bumblebee} and his human lady friend Sari and she wasn't so mean. She's here too.

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Why does it have to be that way?

[He peers down at him, frowning slightly.]

But you're living. You're not like one of us... How could a human being control you?

[raceme]

I don't know, I wish I could give you and answer. But it doesn't have to be that way, _{some people does} try to change things.

[Blurr stares down at the book he was holding.] He used ^{a remote device} with an AllSpark fragment inside it, it could control not only machines but Cybertronians.

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Some people. But it's never enough.

[Not in his opinion.]

All Spark fragment...?

[raceme]

It might seem that way but we have to keep trying. [Mr. Pessimist, meet Mr. determinator.]

The Allspark is one of our <sacred objects, capable of creating new life. It was shattered in our universe and pieces of it were scattered all around earth.

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Trying... it's not always possible.

[Like when you end up dead.]

... then how do you make more of you?

[raceme]

Yes, I know.

We use protoforms ^{combined with} protomater and then we used Vector Sigma, an ancient and _{incredibly powerful} super computer that possessed the ability to create life. We use it to continue the growth of our race after the AllSpark _was jettisoned into space to end the Great War.

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[Well, that's entirely new information.]

You... you come from a computer? A computer program?

[raceme]

Yes but noOooooot exactly except that it's close to that. It's hard to explain. We aren't so different, no.

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... And no one... no one argues whether or not you're alive?

[raceme]

[Blurr shakes his head, understanding where this is going.] No, not at all. How you describe being alive, Kagerou?

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... You're made by a computer, and no one so much as questions--

[The world these robots come just sounds so much better than his own. Even with all the fighting they apparently go through.]

[To be considered alive... immediately... that would be worth all the violence. Wouldn't it?]

Having a soul. Real emotions. Never once thinking, or wondering if, you're nothing more than data stored in a chip...

That's it. That's being alive.

[raceme]

It's a bit more complicated than that but...sorta. Vector Sigma acts out the will of Primus, our creator. I wasn't sure if he was real until I arrived here.

Ah, but a big part of being alive _{is questioning your} existence. There's no creature in this universe or any other that hasn't asked himself at least once 'why I am here?'

Are you afraid to die? I'm not asking if you are afraid of risking your life or fighting, I'm asking if you really worry about being gone.

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It's still a computer system... isn't it? You're still brought to life with a computer.

[Part of him really wants to believe that's all there is to it. That, somewhere, somehow, life is possible, even if it came from where he did.]

Even... animals? Can they ask those questions?

[He doesn't have a response to the last question. Not right away. His head bows.]

Ever since I learned what was intended for me, I... feared it. I didn't want to die. I didn't want to lose the memories of him.

[raceme]

Yes, yes it is. Is a legit way to be brought to life, you know. The human way of creating life is just a way among the vigintillion of ways that exist all across the galaxies.

[It is Kagerou, and it's a good way.]

They do, in a different way. _{They have instincts} that helps them to survive, a part of him that impulse them to keep going and preserve themselves an their species.

[Blurr voice softens and he gives him a few moments before to speak again.]

You ^{had feelings, no} matter what those might be, and fears too...that's the essence of life. In one start in the sky are found all the secrets of the galaxy, in one aspect of You are found all the aspects of existence.

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You still received a soul... From a computer.

[That's what he can't wrap his mind around. He's trying, though.]

Instincts are the same as thinking? I thought they were different.

[He shakes his head slowly.]

I have emotions... because they're programmed. They're part of a chip in my head. Data. That's all. I exist because of more data. Memories.

... I don't think I'll ever know if I'm really alive... or not.