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Failure

WHO: Rung, Open~
WHERE: He's wandered into Alpha Trion's Quadrant.
WHEN Sometime after the bad session with Fortress Maximus.
WHAT: He failed at the only thing he's ever truly been good at and he feels miserable because of it.
WARNINGS: N/A

Rung felt like a failure; an absolute failure in what he was supposed to be good at. He was supposed to help Fortress Maximus, do what he could because that's what his function was, and yet he'd completely fallen apart when the other had gotten upset and instead of helping he'd probably caused more harm than good. He'd lost his composure, let his emotions come through too much, and hadn't been able to keep his own haunting memories at bay.

It was everything that therapist wasn't supposed to do.

A small voice in the back of his head reminded him, as he walked along lost in thought, that the incident was still fairly fresh--recent enough that at times he could still feel the sting of the blow to his head--but a larger voice, the more stubborn one that Rung was letting have control at the moment, argued that it didn't matter. He should have been able to put it all aside and not let it get to him. He should have been able to calm Fortress Maximus down and helped him instead of freaking out.

He'd thought about retracting his offer for the time being, since he didn't feel like he was a good enough doctor to help anyone now, but he'd already made steps with several and he couldn't--wouldn't back out on them now.

But he'd never really felt more worthless in all of his existence really.

Rung had been so lost in thought that he didn't really realize where he'd ended up until he finally caught sight of a lake, the therapist's optics flickering as he slowed to a stop, staring out over the waters before finally looking around. It was very serene in a way, peaceful in a way that reminded him of what Blurr had said.

This must be Alpha Trion's quadrant.

Hesitating for a moment more, Rung's vents cycled softly as he pushed forward, heading down closer to the lake to just sit and..stew some more. Berate himself some more? Something like that...

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There was a slight, startled sort of flicker to Rung's optics, the therapist having settled again after one of his last visitors had taken their leave, glancing down at the newcomer. He relaxed rather quickly as he recognized the human girl, nodding with a thoughtful sound as his gaze returned to the lake.

"It is, very much so," he agreed, a part of him wishing that this had been the temple he'd ended up in--though he didn't have anything against Prima. This area was just quite beautiful. "How are you fairing today?" Rung asked, feeling much more collected now than he had been when he'd first arrived in the area, which was a good thing he supposed.

Her position immediately shifted, lying down on her stomach as she reached towards the water's edge, running a gloved hand along the top of the little 'waves'. It was often she came here to get away from her high-energy style of living, a sort of haven in the Haven.

"Me? I'm pretty good! Well, as good as a girl can be on a giant alien planet with a bunch of robots...

But don't get me wrong! I love it here."

Even if it wasn't Los Angeles...she'd gotten terribly attached to this new world already.

"I suppose it could be quite daunting for someone of your size with beings of my size all around, but I'm glad you find it nice here all the same," Rung said with a happy tinge to his voice, Kay's personality quite nice.

Plus, he really was interested in learning more about humans and interacting with them was one way to do it right?

"Yeah, at first it was kind of scary, because I didn't know if you guys would squish me or not. But...now I got friends who'll look out for me if that happens!"

Her hand goes in slightly deeper, making little ripples.

"Now the biggest problem is just getting to and from places."

It works out then! Kay just adores talking with you guys.

A thoughtful noise escaped the doctor as he nodded some.

"Yes I can see how travel in this place would be difficult for smaller beings. This planet isn't exactly designed for small individuals," he said, having never really stopped to consider it before but it must have been quite difficult for a lot of them.

Especially Four.

"I'm certain there are those that would give you a ride though, yes?" Rung asked, watching her hand as it dipped further into the water.

She can't help but smile at the little noises and expressions Rung made. There was just something about him. You know that feeling you get when you sense that someone's just a really good guy? It's Rung.

"Yeah, I'm getting a workout walking everywhere though! Still, I hate asking some of you guys for rides. It seems rude..."

"Anyone that takes it as rude is just being..stuck up, for the lack of a better way to explain it," Rung replied. "I offered to give Ventus a ride should he ever need it and you can consider that offer extended to you as well. I wouldn't mind in the least."

Because it was just another form of helping people and that's what he liked doing after all.

That hand removes itself from the water, going up to her mouth like so. And yes, it's pretty much complete with sparkles. "Y-You really mean that, Mister?" This just further proved that the robots here were just amazing. Going out of there way to take you places?

"Well, is there anything I can do for you?"

She was definitely right up there with Blades in the kind of adorable factor and it had Rung giving her the same sort of warm smile that he'd given the young copter bot when they'd spent the day together.

"I really do, yes. Anytime, assuming I'm not with a patient, I'll be more than happy to give you a lift," he said in a slight nod to reaffirm what he was saying. The therapist considered what she asked for a brief moment before tilting his head. "Perhaps you could tell me about Earth in exchange? I never visited the planet like many of my crew mates did."

That warm smile is contagious, and it just makes one erupt from her as well. In fact, she pulls her scarf closer to her face to hide it, as if sheepish.

"That's so nice of you...! I'd love to tell you about Earth! It's nowhere near as cool as this place, but... well, I'll do my best!"

But something else catches her attention.

"You're a doctor too?"

"Hm? Oh, yes, I am. Though not a doctor as in the medical sort, necessarily. I help others..I'm..I believe the better term for it is therapist," he corrected after a moment of thought, nodding to himself since he was satisfied with that particular way of explaining it.

"It's been my job for quite a long time now and I truly love doing it because it allows me to help others."

"Oh wow, robots have therapists too? That's...that's just so cool. I mean...we're really far away from each other, but we have the same things! Different names but...

Is this making sense?"

She's looking to and from both of her hands, as if deciding if Point A matched Point B in her reasoning.

Rung's smile softened and he nodded.

"I understand what you mean. For being so different, our species have quite a bit in common in the way we do things and act," he mused, tilting his head as he watched her looking between her hands, optics flickering in an amused way.

"Exactly! I mean, back home...robots are usually lifeless. They move, do commands...but they're nothing like you guys.

You have feelings. It's...it's nice. I can't wait to tell them back on Earth."

"I'm glad you find us nice."

Because that meant that she'd had good experiences with the Cyertronians and other non-organics here and that pleased Rung. Like he'd said to Ventus, he truly did hope this place could be a peaceful one for all of them.

"What was your home on Earth like, since we're already talking about Earth a bit."

"Oh! Well..."

She stood up, starting to walk along the edge of the lake, right where the ground dropped off into straight water.

"Let's see. Do you know what Earth looks like?"

"I have an idea of what it looks like, yes, from what others have told me," the therapist said as he watched her walk along the edge of the lake, hesitating a moment before pushing himself up as well.

"Well, I live on one of the continents there. Here, lemme draw it out for you."

She hurries over to a more 'beachy' part of the lake, going to the wet sand/dirt and taking off her glove. She etches a circle into it, wide enough for Rung to see as she starts putting in the continents as she knows them. Once North America is shown, she puts a dot right at Southern California.

"I'm from here."

There was a fascinated look on Rung's face as Kay started to draw the continents, the therapist's head tilting as he soaks it all up and saves the images to his memory files for the young girl.

"Interesting. So...what's in between all the continents? Water?" he found himself asking, motioning to the gaps as he walks a bit closer, kneeling down just behind the girl a bit.

"That's right! A lot of Earth is covered in water." She gestured to the spaces Rung was specifically talking about. "There's islands on there too, but they're really tiny."

She took a moment to study the picture for a moment, before drawing a much smaller sphere next to it.

"That's our moon"

"Tiny islands in such a large body...curious," Rung mused, peering at the picture as he studied it a bit more, saving the imagery to memory because it could come in handy.

Sometime.

His gaze shifted to the new part of the drawing and he nodded some.

"So your planet has one. Is that the only one?"

"Yeah, I know right? And people live on them!"

At the question about the moon, she looked at her picture again, tilting her head.

"I think so. I don't remember a second moon...but, if you can believe it, it's what makes the tides go back and forth on the beaches right along these."

She traces her finger along the coastlines of the continents.

"Your moon plays quite the important roll then it seems," Rung said thoughtfully as he watched her trace the continents, growing more and more curious about the planet the more Kay told him.

He could see why others--coughHoundcough--had been so intrigued by the place.

"How many humans are there inhabiting the planet?"

That gets her thinking, putting a hand to her chin. Well...there certainly were a lot...

"I think I remember hearing a couple billion. At least 6 billion."

Look at that! School is useful for something!

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