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re_alignment_logs2012-08-26 02:23 am
inferiordude) wrote in re_alignment_logs2012-08-26 02:23 am
hello, good-bye. [CLOSED]
WHO: Soundwave & Vandal
WHERE: Vandal's Shagpad
WHEN Sometime after Soundwave's discussion with Liege Maximo.
WHAT: Eventually, Soundwave knows he needs to tell people about Starscream's disappearance. He begins with Vandal.
WARNINGS: Sad sad sad.
It's times like these in which it's hardest to keep on fighting. Much less so the wrongs inflicted to him on a personal level, how many times he's been forcefully pried open by one person or another. Not that it isn't all difficult to handle. It is, but he finds a way regardless. Soundwave knows he can pick himself up no matter how many times he's been knocked down.
No. The harder point is this, when he loses a friend for good. To never see them again.
Over the course of years, he's lost several friends to war. Something he's hated, something he's never wanted, but still he has no choice but to fight for what he believes in. He's lost a son to it. In Axiom, he had hoped it would lead to something more peaceful, but even then, no. There'd been death.
Then here, Starscream's gone to some kind of Calling. And if he returns, he won't be himself.
It's unfair. It's so unfair and it hurts and he wishes he could just have him back with a snide remark, a cocky grin, and Soundwave doesn't care, doesn't mind, because he knows Starscream cared. He knows it. They were friends.
On his way to Vandal's, he has to stop midway. Soundwave transforms out of his van mode, stumbling over his own feet, feeling his knees buckle and he collapses to his hands and knees.
Yes. It's times like these that it's too much. Grief clutches him, aching in his chest, making his ember tighten into a painful ball of flame.
"C'mon. Get up," Soundwave mumbles to himself. "Get up, you gotta keep going, you can't..."
One of the more unfortunate things is that when he sings and helps motivate people? It has no effect on him. It all comes from his own emotions, how he feels, how he hopes to inspire others.
Yet still. He tries.
He tries to sing, do something.
"A-and... and I'll..." Soundwave's voice trembles as he desperately tries, tries to sing, tries to help himself.
It escalates to him just screaming to himself. "I'll never give up! Never give in...!"
All that remains is an echo of his own voice to himself.
Soundwave presses his forehead to the ground once, helplessly. There's enough strength to transform back into his van mode, and keep going.
Keep going to see Vandal.
He's not the only one who cared about Starscream, after all.
WHERE: Vandal's Shagpad
WHEN Sometime after Soundwave's discussion with Liege Maximo.
WHAT: Eventually, Soundwave knows he needs to tell people about Starscream's disappearance. He begins with Vandal.
WARNINGS: Sad sad sad.
It's times like these in which it's hardest to keep on fighting. Much less so the wrongs inflicted to him on a personal level, how many times he's been forcefully pried open by one person or another. Not that it isn't all difficult to handle. It is, but he finds a way regardless. Soundwave knows he can pick himself up no matter how many times he's been knocked down.
No. The harder point is this, when he loses a friend for good. To never see them again.
Over the course of years, he's lost several friends to war. Something he's hated, something he's never wanted, but still he has no choice but to fight for what he believes in. He's lost a son to it. In Axiom, he had hoped it would lead to something more peaceful, but even then, no. There'd been death.
Then here, Starscream's gone to some kind of Calling. And if he returns, he won't be himself.
It's unfair. It's so unfair and it hurts and he wishes he could just have him back with a snide remark, a cocky grin, and Soundwave doesn't care, doesn't mind, because he knows Starscream cared. He knows it. They were friends.
On his way to Vandal's, he has to stop midway. Soundwave transforms out of his van mode, stumbling over his own feet, feeling his knees buckle and he collapses to his hands and knees.
Yes. It's times like these that it's too much. Grief clutches him, aching in his chest, making his ember tighten into a painful ball of flame.
"C'mon. Get up," Soundwave mumbles to himself. "Get up, you gotta keep going, you can't..."
One of the more unfortunate things is that when he sings and helps motivate people? It has no effect on him. It all comes from his own emotions, how he feels, how he hopes to inspire others.
Yet still. He tries.
He tries to sing, do something.
"A-and... and I'll..." Soundwave's voice trembles as he desperately tries, tries to sing, tries to help himself.
It escalates to him just screaming to himself. "I'll never give up! Never give in...!"
All that remains is an echo of his own voice to himself.
Soundwave presses his forehead to the ground once, helplessly. There's enough strength to transform back into his van mode, and keep going.
Keep going to see Vandal.
He's not the only one who cared about Starscream, after all.
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"Yeah," he responds softly. "He's not... if he comes back, it won't be him. It would be th' same. Liege Maximo said that if he comes back, he'll try to kill us. That we gotta... gotta..."
Soundwave's tone trembles and he feels so helpless. Why did it have to turn out like this?
"It's not gonna be him anymore, Vandal."
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That he wouldn't be coming back. Someone who actually gave a shit. For once in her life she has people and even missing one is like...
She doesn't want to think about it.
"Fuck, Soundwave."
She turns around, covering her face with one hand.
"I can't. What if he doesn't come back at all? If he does? What if it really is him? What then? We can tell, right?"
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Gradually, his voice crackles with static and discomfort. Even to Vandal, his tone should be obvious.
He sounds like he's on the verge of sobbing, and he's trying hard to not lose it in front of her. Soundwave knows he's not the only one to suffer from this, but slag if it isn't hard. He's trying.
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"Hey, hey. Shhh. Come down here."
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The morale officer leans down towards Vandal, his frame quivering.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't find him, I tried..."
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Nothing is going to be okay. She knows that. Not where Starscream is involved. But regardless she holds his chin in both hands and leans her head against his faceplate.
"It's gonna be okay."
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"A-ah, sorry. I just..." Trembling, Soundwave dabs at his own faceplate with the end of his headband. "Guess m'tired."
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Wow so they can... cry? It's strange, but not the strangest thing she's seen. Some of them are so human sometimes it's startling. Jarring in a way. The way they emote. How they feel.
Her hand smooths over his helm.
"Why don't you rest here with me for a while? I'll be the one to stay awake this time."
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He hasn't cried since Rumble died.
"That okay?"
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She pats him, feeling not at all like it would be okay. Feeling worse, but she doesn't cry in front of people. And especially not now.
Not when he need some support.
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After trying to work his intakes and calm them, keep the fluid from running from his optics, Soundwave manages to settle finally. There's a small pause as he looks down at Vandal.
His mask parts, and although he still looks thoroughly upset, he leans down to give her a gentle peck on the forehead.
"Thanks, Vandal," Soundwave says softly.
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"Hey, we're friends, right? We'll get through it. I don;t think we're completely out of luck."
Actually they are, but she doesn't say that. Someone here has to sound optimistic. And Soundwave is kind of a sensitive soul.
"It'll be okay."