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re_alignment_logs2014-07-25 04:04 pm
mccrane) wrote in re_alignment_logs2014-07-25 04:04 pm
A final decision
Who: McCrane and YOU
What: The ex-police commander has been thinking about what new direction he wants to take after loosing members of the Brave Police again. It's been the usual quiet McCrane, out wandering and patrolling the edges of the Haven over the past month or so while Blurr takes over the Enforcers. Now, he needs someone to kick him back into being social again.
Where: Wandering! McCrane can be encountered anywhere, though less likely in one of the temples.
When: Now-ish.
Notes:
Since I've been away for a bit, my assumption with McCrane has been that he's been in an introspective funk, passing the police over to Blurr after realizing what Prowl had been up to and after loosing more members of the Brave Police. It can also be assumed he was around for the Zone event, though he would have been participating only as needed to help keep people safe. Feel free to put him there or away for any other events according to what would be easiest for your character!
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McCrane had not felt like being anywhere, and so he'd travelled everywhere.
It was an unusual feeling. Always, he'd had a place with the Brave Police and with the Enforcement squad. He'd known being commander was a difficult task that he was not entirely prepared for, and he'd worked hard to be as good as he remembered Deckard being. There had been more than one time in which he'd questioned his role, but he'd survived in it somehow.
Then, when Deckard had come back and when he'd realized how Prowl had been manipulating him, it had all started to unravel again. He had not felt comfortable being in charge of the entire force. He longer for command of a smaller group, working on smaller missions, combining skills to accomplish greater tasks. Deckard would make a better chief of police. So would Blurr. Together, they'd be even more incredible...though he suspected that, like him, Deckard would need some time to become acclimatized to Cybertrons ways.
When the other Brave police had started disappearing, he'd stood up one day and left Headquarters, heading out for the badlands. Half-way out he'd stopped.
He did not want to go looking, beause he knew what he'd find. He also did not want to return to headquarters, because of what he wouldn't find.
It was easier to make no decision at all, and stay on the edges of the Haven. He could set up posts that would make good sniper bushes in case of a monster attack, and he could make other preparations for if the badlands ever tried an incursion on the Haven again. He would be ready, and if Blurr or Deckard or Gunmax needed him they could still call.
That would be enough...
And for a while, it was enough.
Now, it didn't feel like enough anymore. He'd set up more bushes than he could possibly use, and he'd marked every piece of useful high ground. There was nothing left for him out here, but he didn't know how to go back.
What would he do now? What would he say?
He could wander forever, and that would be easy...but it wouldn't be right. It wouldn't be what a member of the Brave Police would do.
It was time to return...so why was that still so hard to do?
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What: The ex-police commander has been thinking about what new direction he wants to take after loosing members of the Brave Police again. It's been the usual quiet McCrane, out wandering and patrolling the edges of the Haven over the past month or so while Blurr takes over the Enforcers. Now, he needs someone to kick him back into being social again.
Where: Wandering! McCrane can be encountered anywhere, though less likely in one of the temples.
When: Now-ish.
Notes:
Since I've been away for a bit, my assumption with McCrane has been that he's been in an introspective funk, passing the police over to Blurr after realizing what Prowl had been up to and after loosing more members of the Brave Police. It can also be assumed he was around for the Zone event, though he would have been participating only as needed to help keep people safe. Feel free to put him there or away for any other events according to what would be easiest for your character!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
McCrane had not felt like being anywhere, and so he'd travelled everywhere.
It was an unusual feeling. Always, he'd had a place with the Brave Police and with the Enforcement squad. He'd known being commander was a difficult task that he was not entirely prepared for, and he'd worked hard to be as good as he remembered Deckard being. There had been more than one time in which he'd questioned his role, but he'd survived in it somehow.
Then, when Deckard had come back and when he'd realized how Prowl had been manipulating him, it had all started to unravel again. He had not felt comfortable being in charge of the entire force. He longer for command of a smaller group, working on smaller missions, combining skills to accomplish greater tasks. Deckard would make a better chief of police. So would Blurr. Together, they'd be even more incredible...though he suspected that, like him, Deckard would need some time to become acclimatized to Cybertrons ways.
When the other Brave police had started disappearing, he'd stood up one day and left Headquarters, heading out for the badlands. Half-way out he'd stopped.
He did not want to go looking, beause he knew what he'd find. He also did not want to return to headquarters, because of what he wouldn't find.
It was easier to make no decision at all, and stay on the edges of the Haven. He could set up posts that would make good sniper bushes in case of a monster attack, and he could make other preparations for if the badlands ever tried an incursion on the Haven again. He would be ready, and if Blurr or Deckard or Gunmax needed him they could still call.
That would be enough...
And for a while, it was enough.
Now, it didn't feel like enough anymore. He'd set up more bushes than he could possibly use, and he'd marked every piece of useful high ground. There was nothing left for him out here, but he didn't know how to go back.
What would he do now? What would he say?
He could wander forever, and that would be easy...but it wouldn't be right. It wouldn't be what a member of the Brave Police would do.
It was time to return...so why was that still so hard to do?
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Where had he been?
That was not an easy question to answer. He'd been out here, of course, but that did not explain why. He didn't have any reason to be out here. He'd just been...
"Waiting."
He'd been waiting. He'd been hoping that someone would come wandering back from the badlands, or hoping that something would fall down from the lambda that he recognized, or hoping that something would go right.
"I have been waiting too long." He dipped his head, ashamed. "But it has felt so wrong to return empty handed. I have made so many mistakes."
He had held the police force together for so long, but then there'd been Prowl. He hadn't even seen that coming.
"I thought we were built to know what to do in difficult situations...but I do not. I do not know what to do right now."
Kagerou was one of the few people he felt he could admit that to. They'd been through so much together, here.
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There was an odd quality of skepticism in his voice. And his expression. His head cocked to one side, looking McCrane up and down. "Out of both of us, who has made poorer choices?"
He spoke of things back home, of course. Of the fact McCrane still lived. Of the fact McCrane had everything he could want -- family, friends. And here, the other BP had made a name for himself, made an impression.
He shook his head. "And you believe that I do?" he asked, quietly. "I... have been standing in the same place, waiting, ever since Kay left. McCrane..."
It was supposed to make the other BP feel better. He wasn't sure if it was succeeding or not.
"I'm not the one to ask. Not about these things." He glanced back the way he'd come, after a moment, before adding. "But you can stand with me, until we figure it out."
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Out of the both of them...
They both had regrets. So many regrets. "We have just been trying to live. Maybe...we both thought we could do what we could not actually do. Maybe there are parts of life which are too difficult for us."
He did not blame Kagerou for any of Kagerou's mistakes, however...and he could not imagine that Kagerou blamed him for his. It made him feel a little better, knowing that.
"If you will stand with me, Kagerou, then maybe the things which seem to hard to do will be possible for us?"
McCrane had been build to interact with others, and to be on a team. Without a team, he felt like nothing...but Kagerou knew what that was like. Kagerou had been built with a small team, too.