[CLOSED] weenies

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

WHO: Drift and Wing
WHERE: Hippie house (aka Drift and Wing's rad bachelor pad at the Hub)
WHEN: As soon as Wing gets back from THIS.
WHAT: Drift being an emotionally constipated weenie and Wing being Wing
WARNINGS: Hippies

[Okay, so maybe Drift was having mixed feelings about Wing "going out" with Knock Out. On one hand, HEY, he was making friends and all. That was good! It wasn't really fair that Drift was hogging someone as good as Wing all to himself anyway. At least, that's how he felt sometimes, considering they lived together, sparred together, trained together, meditated together... yeah. They were practically glued at the hip at this point. He couldn't blame Wing if he wanted to get away from him every now and then.

On the other hand, Drift couldn't help but feel a little... off. Jealous? He wasn't really sure what it was, but either way, he didn't like that he felt that way. He certainly wasn't entitled to Wing's time or attention, but part of him liked it. Almost craved it, even, and that bothered him. He'd chalked it up to being afraid of losing him again, and while that might have been true, in the back of his mind he knew there was more to it than that. And that bothered him, too.

Basically, everything was bothering him, and he felt stupid for being bothered. Man, what a pain.

So here he was, waiting up for Wing to return and busying himself with tidying up his side of their shared room, trying to distract himself from being a gigantic weenie.]

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[happyclappyhippydrippy]

I don't feel like I... well. Deserve someone like you. It would have been selfish of me to demand even more of your time.

[Drift glances away, averting his optics. this was pretty much exactly as awkward as he had expected it to be.]

[knight_light]

[His optics narrow a bit, smile disappearing.] And why would you think you'd not deserve someone like me?

You're a good mech, Drift. You'd lost your way when we first met, but from all you've told me you've gone out of your way to be the best that you could be.

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

That doesn't mean anything, Wing. It doesn't make up for what I used to be. For what I've done.

[Well shit, he hadn't intended to get this weirdly personal, and he mentally kicked himself for bringing up his stupid insecurities.]

I mean, I am a better person now. I'm trying so hard to be, and it really is all thanks to you, but I'm still... broken, I guess. You deserve someone who isn't screwed up. I just want what's best for you.

[knight_light]

It means everything, Drift. No one is perfect, that you're trying means a lot.

[He stepped back up to Drift, reaching out to give his friend's shoulder a squeeze. He doesn't know if he can ever teach you to see yourself as worthy, but he can try.]

You're worth more than you let yourself believe.

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

[Drift reaches up to brush Wing's hand from his shoulder.]

I don't like myself, Wing. I haven't for a long time. I'm trying to, though. I'm trying to believe I'm worth something.

[He's quiet for a moment, nibbling his lip uneasily before stepping in, hesitantly wrapping his arms around Wing's back and resting his head on his shoulder.]

You've... helped me with that a lot already. I'm so grateful to have you back.

[knight_light]

[He was mildly surprised to have his hand brushed away, but it also told him just how wounded Drift was inside. When Drift stepped in to hug him? Wing smiled softly and wrapped his arms back around Drift, holding him firmly close.]

I'm glad I can be here for you. You mean a lot to me, Drift.

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

[Drift's reply is soft, his voice muffled by Wing's shoulder]

This is probably stupid, but it means a lot to hear you say that.

[Honestly, that isn't something he hears very often. He vents a content sign, still feeling a little off about all this, but for now, he'll let himself enjoy the other mech's embrace.]

[knight_light]

[Wing just held Drift to him, one hand softly moving up and down Drift's back.]

So...if you won't ask me... [He shifted back just enough to look at Drift.] Are you doing anything tomorrow night?

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

[Drift met Wing's optics for a moment before he drops his forehelm to the jet's chestpiece, trying to hide the dorky grin spreading across his face.]

Now that you mention it, I think I'm free tomorrow night.

[knight_light]

Good. It's a date, then.

You have a favorite place around here? [He knew Drift hadn't been here too much longer than he had, but it was worth asking. Drift had been with him practically since arriving, so if Drift had found a place he liked before Wing arrived, Wing wasn't aware of it.]

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

[Yeah that gets a dumb giggle in response. Hang on Drift's getting his shit together.]

Mm. I don't really, but I hear Liege's Quadrant has some hot springs. I've been meaning to visit, but I keep getting distracted.

[knight_light]

[That giggle earns him a soft snerk from Wing.]

Hot springs sounds nice.

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

[dude don't snerk at Drift he's a manly badass okay. Well mostly. A little.

A manly badass who is enjoying this hugging thing a little too much.]

We should go see them. I mean, unless you had any other ideas.

[knight_light]

[Wing is perfectly happy to just hug him.]

I think your idea is perfect. We'll head to the hot springs tomorrow.

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

[GOOD. Even if this is kind of the longest hug ever. Drift reluctantly lets go, stepping back a bit]

That... sounds good. I'd like that.

[that... kind of sounded a little awkward. Drift was pretty crappy at this still. OH WELL.]

[knight_light]

[That's okay, you can be awkward, Drift, Wing finds it rather endearing.]

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

[OKAY GOOD because Drift feels like a giant awkward dork 80% of the time. The other 20% of the time he's killing shit.]

Um.

Anyway.

It's late. We should maybe recharge.

[knight_light]

Yes. We should.

[Have a last quick hug.] Sleep well, Drift.

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

[Aw man hugs Drift could get used to this.]

Yeah, you too!

[And well he was about to hop onto his berth but OOPS all that shit from his shelf was still on it. He laughs sheepishly and starts putting that shit away. whoops huh.]

[knight_light]

[That sheepish laugh makes Wing pause, and with a chuckle he comes over to help Drift clear off his berth. You dork, he loves you, you know that? How deeply, even he's not sure yet, hey, it's only been a couple months, okay? But he does love you.]

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

Thanks. I kinda... got distracted.

[by your dumb face. Drift's bad at feelings. Like actual REAL feelings and not some dumb show he puts on to seem "okay". But he'll figure it out.]

[knight_light]

Hm, I think that may have been my fault. [He gives Drift a light nudge before he steps away to go put down the things he just picked up off the berth.]

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

Ah... yeah. Yeah, pretty much. Not that I'm complaining, of course.

[and BOOM CLEAN. Drift takes a seat on his berth and OH well okay his shitty cat just hopped up onto his leg. apparently it's pay attention to Rodimus the cat time.]

[knight_light]

[Well, since Drift won't be lying down to sleep quite yet, Wing sits beside him, reaching to gently love on Rodimus. This only causes Skyhopper to perk up and let out a rather jealous sounding meow. Skyhopper starts picking his way across the room.]

I won't apologize then.

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

[Aww cats. Drift chuckles, watching Skyhopper strut on over. He leans into Wing, almost hesitantly. He doesn't want to seem too ...needy? Overly affectionate? But he was sure Wing would let him know if he was.]

[knight_light]

[Wing just leans into Drift a bit in return. When his cat came around close enough he offered up a hand to the kitten, bringing the little rascal down by his chest.]

I think bringing these two back here with us was a good idea. [he loves da kitties. ~<3]

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

I can't believe I was against it at first. They're adorable.

[And rodimus was making himself comfortable on Drift's lap. Well shit so much for recharging nobody wants to move a sleeping cat.]

[knight_light]

[Wing isn't afraid of moving a sleeping cat. He plucks Rodimus up, stands, and motions for Drift to lie down. He's not noticed that you move too much in your sleep, so once Drift is settled, he'll plop the protesting kitty onto Drift's chest plates.]

Adorable and in charge, yes? [amused.]

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

[Drift lies down, nudging the bratty little cat with a finger once Wing puts it down. It chirps cat noises and flops into a fluffy kitty pile.]

Give me a break, I'm still getting used to the thing.

[knight_light]

[Wing laughs and shrugs, gesturing to the little furball that's managed to find a way to his helm. Skyhopper is looking rather smug up there.]

I don't know either of us will ever tame them.

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

Teamwork, Wing. We can do this.

[and that's when Rodimus started purring. Nope nope cats rule the hippie house now.]

[knight_light]

[Chuckles.] I think we should learn to choose our battles. Good night, Drift.

[He'll head to his berth, plucking Skyhopper from his head so he can lie down.]

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

Night!

[RECHARGE TIME YOU SHITTY CAT, time for an engine revving noise contest with this purring monstrosity.]

[knight_light]

[He actually facepalms so he can laugh at you without you knowing. You're such an adorable dork, Drift.]

[happyclappyhippydrippy]

[THIS CAT AIN'T SHIT. Drift spends like an hour playing with the cat before finally going into recharge. y'know like an adult.]