Dead End (
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re_alignment_logs2013-01-05 10:11 am
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everybody's got a secret
WHO: Dead End & Rung
WHERE: Rung's office.
WHEN Immediately after this.
WHAT: Dead End got himself in trouble, and it's time to tell Rung why.
WARNINGS: None?
When Cliffjumper had made his little announcement over the Link, he hadn't expected anyone to stand up for him. Instead what he got was two bots standing up for him, one of which was Rung. Considering the mech had told him outright that he'd stand up for him when he'd gotten his power core present, it shouldn't have been so much of a surprise. But he hadn't really expected it, and the ordeal with the trigger happy red Autobot was a completely different matter.
Perhaps, just perhaps, he was a tiny bit lucky. But let's not get too positive here!
There were things he needed to explain to the therapist, and over the Link wasn't the best of places when his diet was still somehow not common knowledge to the universe. Face to face was better, and a world of difference in privacy.
The trek to Rung's office was a slow one, as Dead End attempted to give himself some time to figure out just what to tell the other bot. There weren't many ways to really go about it and he did eventually reach the door.
He could just turn around and go hide in his room. It was in the same temple, he'd speed out of there before anyone even knew he'd been out front of Rung's office door. But Rung was a friend, and one that allowed him energy. Listening to this stuff was also his job, but that was less important at the moment. He did kind of deserve an answer considering he'd just told the mech he'd give one.
Well not directly told, but it was the same thing.
Vents cycle through some air as he opens the door and quietly shuts it behind him.
"Um..."
WHERE: Rung's office.
WHEN Immediately after this.
WHAT: Dead End got himself in trouble, and it's time to tell Rung why.
WARNINGS: None?
When Cliffjumper had made his little announcement over the Link, he hadn't expected anyone to stand up for him. Instead what he got was two bots standing up for him, one of which was Rung. Considering the mech had told him outright that he'd stand up for him when he'd gotten his power core present, it shouldn't have been so much of a surprise. But he hadn't really expected it, and the ordeal with the trigger happy red Autobot was a completely different matter.
Perhaps, just perhaps, he was a tiny bit lucky. But let's not get too positive here!
There were things he needed to explain to the therapist, and over the Link wasn't the best of places when his diet was still somehow not common knowledge to the universe. Face to face was better, and a world of difference in privacy.
The trek to Rung's office was a slow one, as Dead End attempted to give himself some time to figure out just what to tell the other bot. There weren't many ways to really go about it and he did eventually reach the door.
He could just turn around and go hide in his room. It was in the same temple, he'd speed out of there before anyone even knew he'd been out front of Rung's office door. But Rung was a friend, and one that allowed him energy. Listening to this stuff was also his job, but that was less important at the moment. He did kind of deserve an answer considering he'd just told the mech he'd give one.
Well not directly told, but it was the same thing.
Vents cycle through some air as he opens the door and quietly shuts it behind him.
"Um..."

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"So the desire to completely drain someone has been stronger lately? Even more now that you had that power core, yes?" he asks softly, trying to get a grasp on what the other is attempting to get across to him. His optics flicker at the mention of Vehicons--whatever those are--the therapist tilting his head a bit.
"And what do they say about you exactly?"
He knows what others say about Dead End, like Cliffjumper for example, but he doesn't believe it, knowing that the other does have a good spark underneath it all. It's not his fault that he's the way he is now.
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Like Cliffjumper. He'd really have liked to hook up to him and just sat back as he siphoned away all of the bot's energy. But the Autobot woke up and he'd missed his chance. Well not quite missed, he could have killed him anyway and just cut the power core out, but. But he stopped himself.
He shouldn't have.
But chance were Rung would be happy to hear that. If he decides to say anything about it.
"They say I'm crazy," he sighs, clearly not all that fond of the word.
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But it could have happened to anyone.
"You aren't crazy."
Snapping out of his thoughts rather quickly when the other spoke again, Rung frowned softly.
"And anyone that says you are clearly needs their own head checked. You are doing what you have to do to survive and while it isn't the nicest of means, it's what you have to do. What we need to figure out is a way to give you what you need without hurting others here in Haven," he continued, looking thoughtful now as the frown faded. "Have you tried talking to any of the Firstforged about this?"
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"They say I am... among other things." And he's entirely positive that they aren't the only ones to think like that. There was no way that with his reputation back in his world, they the Vehicons were the only ones to think such a thing. Here? Most of the bots that knew his diet probably thought it too.
Dead End freezes momentarily at the mention of the Firstforged. They weren't quite on his list of "bots he's okay with" far from it.
"I spoke to Megatronus Prime about it. He said he needed to talk to his brothers and that I should talk to Nexus Prime until then."
Relaxing a little in the chair he continues, "I haven't really heard from either of them since I last spoke with them."
He pulls his legs in, pressing them up against his chest. It was fine by him if they hadn't contacted him back.
"I'm sure they're busy with other things, or they forgot. I'm not exactly important."
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It wasn't fair to the bot. At all.
"And you are important, whether you believe it or not, Dead End. Everyone here is. I could talk to them if you wanted, or perhaps bringing it to Ultra Magnus might be the better idea. He'd listen," the therapist said softly, not sure how the other felt about Magnus but Rung trusted him more than most of the bots here.
"Or I could speak with my Firstforged."
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Optics go wide at the drop of Ultra Magnus' name. Dead End's wings shoot up from their twitching state and he almost falls out of the chair, shaking his hands and his head in complete disagreement.
"N-no! You don't need to bring him into this."
His first and only conversation with the Autobot didn't go over all that well. Sure he did mention that he should talk to Rung, long before Whirl mentioned it, but he'd never have listened to the guy because of the conversation they'd had.
"He hates me."
And he didn't even know about the diet yet. Dead End couldn't imagine how much worse it would get if that got out. Likely horrible. If he didn't die he'd probably lose and arm or something.
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"Alright, I'll leave Ultra Magnus out of it then," he said reassuringly, hesitating a moment before folding his arms on top of his desk as he moved closer to it. "Would you be willing to let me talk to my Firstforged then and see what I can figure out? There has to be something that can be done, Dead End. I'm not going to just stand by and watch you starve or get harmed because you're attempting to survive."
If there was a solution, Rung was determined to find it no matter what. Even if he had to be a bit sly about it when talking to others, he'd find an alternative for Dead End.
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"They're usually busy, it might be better to just leave him alone. I'll be fine."
He cracks the weakest smile possible, although it wasn't what he'd intended to do. He'd been hoping for something a bit more. Cheery. But see, just fine.
"I haven't killed anyone yet, so everything's good. I even stopped myself from cutting off that Autobot's arm and slowly cutting him open."
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"That's not the point. The point is that you have the right to a viable food source just like the rest of us and there isn't one for you. So something needs to be done in order to make this happen for you," Rung countered, shaking his head a bit as his vents cycled softly.
He doesn't want to see anything bad happen to the other, that's what this all comes down to, and he's going to be stubborn about it.
As usual.
"Let me at least try and talk to them."
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When your main source of energy is consuming that of other bots you kind of loose that right. At that point it becomes you have a right to die if you don't leave. Nothing more.
He's not expecting Rung to just accept that and move on, Rung's fixed on helping him, and well the last few arguments over his well being ended in a win for the therapist. It was going to happen again.
"I don't see the point..."
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There was another pause as the therapist considered something else, glancing down for a moment as he fiddled with his hands before continuing.
"You're also welcome to come here anytime if you need a place--a safe place--to be. I know it's probably not the most comfortable of accommodations but if you need someplace to just get away from others and rest...my door's always open for you."
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The other was determined enough to actually see though the things he was saying, chances were he'd probably do it anyway no matter what Dead End said.
"I can't stop you from talking to him, but I'm sure he's too busy for me."
The offer causes the Decepticon to blink. Speaking of busy.
"Aren't you really busy too? With your job and everything..."
He can't just drop in whenever he feels uncomfortable with the rest of the world.
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At least not in Rung's opinion. He'll make his case to the Firstforged and hopefully they'll listen.
Hopefully.
"I have my job to do but that doesn't mean you can't stop in. If I'm in a session with someone, you can just stay out in the main room until my office is free. I really don't mind," Rung replied, shrugging some, giving the other a look that said just how serious he was.
Because if Dead End was here, then at least he'd know he was safe.
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For a moment he doesn't say anything, simply thinking the offer over in his processor. If Rung was busy with someone else then he could wait in the main room. That would be okay, maybe. Unless another of Rung's friends or patients came by and happened to be someone that hated him.
"I guess... Maybe every now and then, if I need to hide. Especially after all of this."
He'd just have to check that no one else was around first.
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He waits quietly as the other seems to think his offer over, leaning back in his seat and dropping his hands into his lap. Absently he rubs at his thumb as he waits, hoping that the other will--
Ah, perfect.
"Good. As I said, the door will always be open to you, Dead End."
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"The good isn't something I get a lot."
Dead End nods, he'll do his best to stop by when he needs to.
"Rung... Is what I did really that bad? What I wanted to do?"
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"..I can see the good and the bad of it," Rung admitted quietly after the long stretch of silence, optics brightening a touch as he focused his gaze on the mech across from him once more. "You're doing what you need to do and while it's not the most conventional or smiled upon means, it's what you have to do to survive and we all have the right to do that."
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Perhaps he wants some permission of sorts, someone to tell him that he hasn't done wrong. Some kind of affirmation. Or maybe he just wants to know what Rung thinks because he's a friend. Because he's one of the reasons Dead End actually thought about stopping.
When he gets his answer the look on his face is less than happy, but when is he ever happy? It's just the same depressed look he normally sports around.
"So... If I had drained him. If he died, I wouldn't be some horrible monster? You wouldn't hate me?"
He wouldn't loose one of the few friends he has?
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And he wouldn't. It wasn't the nicest of means but it was what the other had to do and Rung could accept that, as uncomfortable as it might make others.
Though it just made him want to find an alternative even more.
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He'd called Rung special once, and Primus did he mean it.
"If I were to try finding someone again, you wouldn't report me?"
Rung how willing are you to potentially harbor a criminal?
"Not that I'll find anyone, now that the universe has properly thrown me into a dark pit to starve... But if I ever did."
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Survival was something they were all entitled to right? The chance at least.
"...I wouldn't...no," Rung admitted in a soft voice, almost a whisper, the therapist clearly torn on how to go about this. "I'd be lying if I said I was comfortable with the idea, and I'd much rather you just take energy from me and your other source whenever you need it..but if it happened, you would have a safe place here and someone to stand by you while everything got sorted out."
He knew what he was agreeing to, what he was offering, and it was a risk. A big one. But he was willing to take it because he wasn't sparkless.
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He expected to her how Rung would be supportive of him, how he doesn't want to see him starve and he understands. But what he got was far more than that.
Was whoever controlled his luck on holiday? Did the universe just suddenly decide it was done with him and it was time to leave him be? This kind of thing didn't happen to him. It couldn't. Right now that cannon-carrying Autobot was going to storm in, stomp all over his already ruined paint job, and then blast him into a worthless pile of melted goop.
Dead End shuffles in his chair, wings twitching with every uncomfortable movement. It's almost as if he's arguing with himself over what to do. What to say. He looks confused.
He's hearing things. That's what it is. Right? It was inevitable that his life would end all too short, being dropped into void after void of no one cares and no one's going to. Of get used to pain and hate and living a life you won't enjoy, and-
He'd really said it hadn't he?
"You'd... You'd stand by me?" his awkward shuffling doesn't stop, despite finally managing to say something in response.
He should maybe try one of those hug things on Rung. Actually there was a lot of things he'd like to do.
Better just stay in the chair.
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He can see how weird this for Dead End and it breaks his spark a bit, to know that know one has ever really tried to help him. The idea of death is not something Rung likes, not by another's hands that is, and he hates that this is what the other has to do. But he'd stand by the other, defend him and the fact that there isn't another alternative for the 'Con.
Sacrificing one life for another isn't the best of way for things to go but..well..hopefully it won't actually come to that.
"I trust you to do what's right, in the long run. I don't...know what this all has done to you, if the drive to consume power cores is completely a survival thing or.." Well, he'd rather not consider the fact that maybe Dead End really does like it. "But I would stand by you if you needed me."
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He was a Decepticon, how long would right last?
"That would be just borrowing energy from you and Wheeljack." More if he could possibly get volunteers from those that knew about his diet. Bad luck may have taken a small holiday, but there was no way that would happen. The floor opening up and crushing him was more likely than that.
"I- I don't know if I can," he starts, "I don't want to not be able to stop and just drain you completely." That's the last thing he wants or needs. Accidentally eating a friend. Wouldn't go over well.
"But I guess I can try."
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He didn't want Dead End to suffer. Not at all. He was growing far too fond of the other to see that happen.
"No matter what though, I'm afraid you're a bit stuck with me now," he added with a small smile, relaxing some more now that they were moving past that hard to touch situation.
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Sure there was that one time with Bulkhead, but that was just one time. It wasn't going to be some permanent deal, tasty as the mech had been. There would only be Jackie and Rung, which he was fine with... So long as he could manage to not get too restless for actually killing for a core.
"I don't think you'll want to be stuck with me," he hasn't quite finished being a little ball of awkward. "But I think I'd like that. Shouldn't be too hard to get used to."
Until life takes it all away.
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That just shows how special you are to him, Deads.
"..Would you like to stay here tonight?" he asks rather out of the blue, figuring it might be the safest bet.
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If Rung wanted to make it so he'd be stuck with him, then that was that. He couldn't do anything without cutting all ties to the therapist, and he wasn't about to loose one of the few bots around that he could actually talk to without feeling like he was hated. Or about to be shot or beat into scrap metal.
Shuffling stalls as he's asked if he'd like to stick around for the night. It was probably a good idea to stay somewhere that wasn't his own room. Just in case by some chance, Cliffjumper found where he lived. The other bot was probably by his room right now, storming about angerly, ready to shoot. He wouldn't put it past life.
"I..." he nods, yes he would. "I'll stay out of your way so you can work."
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It made the quiet of his office a little less suffocating, if anything.
"Make yourself comfortable. As far as I'm concerned, this place is as much as a home to you now as it is to me," Rung added and the sincerity in his voice was thick.
He had said he'd protect the other after all.
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His vents cycle out a sigh, and he finally calms himself enough to properly curl up in the chair once more. Right. He's staying the night in Rung's office, and he would do his best not to bother the other mech as he worked.
Even if there wasn't really much work, according to Rung.
"I wouldn't go that far," he cracks a smile, although it's gone just as fast as it appeared. "The place is yours."
He's never been the kind to really make places home, to take over certain areas or command spaces. Even his own room - while technically his home here - was nothing more than empty and dark, for any that had actually seen its interior. Dead End was the type of mech to stick himself in a dark corner and just cease existing to the rest of the world, the only real identification that he was still there being the glow from his overly bright green optics.
The chair is more than fine to him, he's got no reason to try and make himself comfortable.
"Thank you, Rung. I owe you."
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Pushing himself up out of his seat, with the intent on going to make sure the front door was secure--just in case--Rung paused next to the other and gave Dead End a gentle smile. He reached over to rest a hand on the other's shoulder, squeezing it slightly, letting his hand linger.
"It's no problem at all, Dead End. I mean it," he said softly, reassuringly, hand slowly slipping away before he started for the door. "I'm going to go make sure the door's locked. I really don't want anyone barging in tonight, not when you need rest."
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He eyes the hand on his shoulder, slowly looking up at Rung. "Yeah, well you know I don't really know anyone else that would do this."
Except maybe Sissel. But Sissel was much easier to step on than Rung was, he didn't want to endanger the little guy when he was already walking around with a rather large hole in his body. And well, more importantly Sissel didn't know about his diet, Rung did. he could confide in Rung a bit more... Which really was the point of having a therapist. Friends too.
When Rung's hand moves off of him and he heads to the door, Dead End turns in the chair, looking over the back of it.
"I'd be fine without rest, Rung. I don't get a lot of it to begin with." And he could always just eat whoever barged in, if they didn't kill him first.
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"All the more reason I'm going to make sure you get your chance to rest, Dead End," he murmured before stepping out of the room and heading down the hall. The therapist reached thr main door and locked it, lingering there for a moment as he lost himself to thought.
He was taking a risk, like he always did, and he knew this could end badly for him in several ways. But he couldn't bring himself to worry about the threat it all was to him. Perhaps he really was straying down the path of going out of his processor after all this time or..maybe he really just was that lonely.
Shaking his head a bit, Rung turned and headed back to his office, slipping inside as his optics dimmed from weariness.
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He didn't particularly need any rest, he'd get it occasionally during brooding sessions when he was in his room curled up in a dark corner - because who used berths these days?
Dead End sinks down in the chair, it wasn't difficult to see that he was causing Rung more trouble than the bot likely needed.
"You okay?" he asks when Rung returns, peeking out from behind the chair. Really less about actually catching the look on Rung's face and more just general worrying that he's probably asking too much from the other - even if technically he hasn't actually asked for anything.
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One of these days he should probably consider getting a real berth in here for those times when he just didnt leave.
"Rest well, Dead End," Rung said softly as he moved over towards his desk, voice soft in the exhaustion now catching up to him. He paused though, not making it all the way to his destination, glancing at the other as his optics brightened just a touch. "Considering earlier, did you need energy?"
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Turning around in his chair as the other pauses, he reaches out to grab hold of Rung's arm. It's not a particularly Decepticon-like thing to do, what he's planning, but Rung is an Autobot so it'll maybe go over okay. And it wasn't as though he'd been sparked to be one, he'd had a normal job before the war, and another before that. Who was to say that he couldn't do this even as a Decepticon... He simply couldn't do it with another Decepticon.
As gently as he can manage he tugs Rung into his lap, pulling the other mech into a hug. Rung's been in his lap before, so it's not like this was awkward,
it was completely awkward. Likely a better thank you considering the other's faction. Or maybe Rung'll hate it, with his luck that wouldn't be a surprise."If you're tired you should probably rest, I won't starve... Unless something breaks down the wall and zaps most of my energy away."
And let's face it, there was only maybe a sixty possibly seventy percent chance of that happening.
"I should be able to wait."
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"If you're sure...I really dont mind," he murmurs. It's impossible to hide how exhausted he is though and as much as he wants to, he's well aware that he shouldn't.
Pulling back from the hug, hands resting on Dead End's shoulders.
"And if anyone really is stupid enough to barge in here then they won't like what happens," he said in a rather guff manner, frowning some in a way that says he won be playing nice with anyone that decides to be that rude and idiotic.
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"You could fall over," he states, with a shake of his head. Or Rung could just pass out during it. Or things could be just fine, but considering how things went the first time he'd borrowed energy from the therapist, chances were he'd fall over or just pass out.
Once Rung's hands move to he pulls his own away, not entirely sure where to put his hands. Eventually he decides that stuffing them between himself and the chair, about as far from touching Rung as he's able, is best. That way the other mech could get up whenever he felt was time.
"But you don't have any weapons," it's said rather flatly. Rung acting all tough was kind of difficult to take as seriously as he should be taking it. The other mech couldn't fight as far as he knew, so him making threats. Well, it was difficult.
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The sad thing was, he really hadn't been on his game as of late, at all. He'd made a fool of himself in more ways than one and he really did need to step it up again. He'd found his place here and now it was time to fill the position properly.
"I'm sorry the accommodations for sleep aren't perfect but..I hope you rest well, Dead End," the therapist says softly, settling into his seat and relaxing almost immediately. Even without a berth, at least his chair was suitable.
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It would be harder to stop if Rung wasn't conscious for it.
"And if you say so." He won't doubt Rung, but he does doubt that there are those that won't take advantage if he doesn't have a weapon. "I have swords if you need them, just in case."
Because why would he use them when he's the one that knows how to actually fight with them? Smart thinking Dead End.
Once Rung has taken his seat behind the desk, Dead End returns to curling up in his own chair, giving the other a little nod.
"They're fine," he manages a small smile. He'll do his best to try and get some rest himself, if he can stop himself from just watching Rung instead. Scrap, he'll probably have to turn around for the whole rest thing to work.
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"Alright...rest well then, Dead End," the therapist murmured, optics dimming a bit more as he grew even more comfortable in his current position. When they finally went offline, his vents cycled softly, the noise very audible as he fell into a deep recharge--not by choice, he was just that exhausted.