[More fidgeting.] Yes. I'm not suited for ^{certain sort} of interactions, _{I'm bad at them} and I don't want my personal flaws to affect the Police Force.

[He doesn't answer that other question so quickly nor is he looking at McCrane. He misses not caring, rather than being alone. Not caring hurt less than this. Not caring meant that he did not have to worry about ruining any body's life if he screwed up, only his own. He doesn't care about his own life, that's not so important.]

...in a way...