It would be a lie for him to deny he's considered taking his life in this state. To hope that this way he stays himself, that he defies Unicron a tool, that something comes out of it...

But there is no hope in it.

"What guarantee does death hold for me?" Nemesis demands, turning to keep an eye on Ramjet. "Or did you forget that it was death that spawned me?"

There is no hesitation in telling this 'secret' - however much it is or was one - between these two.

One, who knew him as well as anyone could - the other, who knows him as well as he let anyone outside of the Alternity.

They are both, in their own ways, the mechs he trusts most.